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"Melt" Sorin Oak Review

Every word that dripped from your lips  

Every breed; soft, harsh, said with a smile

They all became my stars

And though that night was dark

I wasn't lost, I knew the constellations well

And when I questioned them and their position

They melted into raindrops

And I started to drown

Still, as always, I tried to drink them up
Faster they fell
my dance in the rain turned to desperation
Filling my lungs, then throat
Words I could no longer swallow
I couldn’t keep my pretty mouth shut.
I had to choose: to swallow stars,

or to breathe.


"Homesick" Sorin Oak Review
I guess it’s the place I would call home-
six years old,
still- I remember the first summer
in that ancient adobe house.
Half a dozen apple trees, scattered over
acres. An acequia
made by men three centuries ago–
it snaked behind the straw and earthen home.
A forest of plum trees grew on either bank
three Arabian horses, chestnut
in the neighboring field.
Dad called them a family of pegasies-
Mom corrected him, pegasi-
Because we all lived up near the clouds,
atop the llano, atop the world.

One train, two bus rides, and half a heart later
Live by the clock, not by the sun
Streetcars screech, not inflicted by pain-
simply because it is what they were taught to do.
Night falls when the clock says,
not when the darkness comes
I want to unpack my haven, home
but it had to stay, I had to go

I’m told that time heals,
but no one here has any to spare.

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